Can i just express everything here ?
I just deactivate my social media accounts except for whatsapp.
I dont have place to share
so i guess this is the only place that i can share everything
i think i made a mistake again and again
i dont know how to put this
but i regret
for what i did in my life
i dont know why i was born in this world
was it to burden my parents ?
was it to make their feelings hurt ?
was it to be a place where people can put their anger to
why people are so mean
they just say whatever they want to say
they just do whatever i want to do
i want to be that kind of person too
but i just cant
i let people step on my head
i let people step on my word
i let they do whatever they want to do to me
but still
i give them my smile
i give them what they want
i try my best to help them
if i wont be able to help them just for one time
i feel worthless
but they must be thinking that i am no help at all
they might say that i am a bad friend
they might say im useless
can i just live on my own ?
without thinking anything
can i just run ?
at this moment i just want to run
i just want to let everyone know that i dont care anymore
i have already had enough
i just want to be alone
im just want to be disappear
im just so ... sad.
and i ain't lying
please somebody help me
i need somebody to heal this sick feelings
ayah at this point i really need you
can you just help me ?
can you just come and hug me ?
i miss you so much
PAST • FUTURE
I am Raja Nur Ain Sumayyah binti Raja Zainalabidin and this is my blog, it's mine. In this very little space from the World Wide Web, this could be the only place where in i can have my freedom to express myself, rant whenever i wanted to, post non-sense shit, type asdfghjkl until i get tired like an idiot. Actually i'm just fifTEEN and i don't act like what normal teen girls do. I'm weird and i like crazy things. I like the smell of an old book, I yawn and don't close my mouth even if i'm in a public place.. and i blah blah, i blah too.. enough. bye byee! You may click links and contact to be friend with me.Thanks !
